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By | 2016-12-10T12:43:08+00:00 December 10th, 2016|Healing, Meditation, Self Care|0 Comments

I would suffer deeply without meditation; I did for so long.  I knew temporary success on the outside but not in my heart and spirit. I had a successful business at 21 years old, married a fabulous guy at 25, had two healthy, happy kids by 29. We lived in a beautiful home in a quintessential New England community, and had a 2nd home on Cape Cod, what could be better? But still, the sadness prevailed. I  tried to nurture and heal my wounds superficially, but these attempts were short-lived and brought on more anxiety for me when the experience failed to fill the empty space inside me.screen-shot-2016-12-08-at-5-23-37-pm

My suffering played out in many ways:

  • I felt unworthy of great opportunities
  • Extreme emotional highs and lows
  • Blame
  • Fear
  • Anxiety attacks and anger
  • Isolation and Separation
  • Loneliness and deep sadness

I felt I had tried hard to find a way through this suffering and couldn’t understand why my efforts felt so hopeless, then one day I knew the answer. I took a step and joined a meditation group. I hadn’t wanted to go, but my trusted yoga teacher encouraged me to attend. Resistantly, I showed up, and in just a few minutes of being there, I realized that this was what had been missing from my life. I will forever remember the feelings I had in those first moments. I listened to the teacher and every word she spoke resonated inside of me. I heard the students talk about the confusion, frustration, anxiety and disappointments they thought would be with them forever. I understood my emptiness through their words, I was not alone, they felt it too.
I understood now why my previous attempts at peace and happiness had not worked, I had not built a foundation strong enough to hold, view, and heal through my greatest sadnesses. I had not gone inside and done the internal inquiry, and this is what it takes to build a foundation for a strong and dependable life.

My techniques, while earnest, were in the wrong order. My process to heal before meditation was similar to that of building a house on sand. It looked beautiful for a while but could not stand up to the challenging condition of nature and life.

After years of feeling unsuccessful, and hopeless, I finally found a place to start. From that starting point, I have grown my life from the inside out. I have never turned back, why would I? I know a life now that I could only have dreamt about before. Give yourself this chance, start somewhere, even the smallest look inside will bring you to abundant, boundless opportunities for healing and love.

 

 

 

About the Author:

Sarah Brassard’s passion lies in teaching people how to create a foundation for self-care, a method of wellness that brings profound opportunities for transformation. She is the author of Inside: A Guide to the Resources Within to Stay Vibrant and Alive Through All Life’s Challenges. The book details the self-care practices and protocols that sparked her healing journey and that she has been sharing with students and clients for the past fifteen years.

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