Last week I spent five days in the Berkshires with 600 other yogis practicing Kundalini yoga, chanting, dancing, laughing and taking tender care of my spirit. As the weekend wrapped up, I noticed how much my energy had lifted; my body felt lighter, my thoughts more compassionate and my heart more hopeful.
These sensations brought me strength and clarity. I had not realized how much I needed this time for healing. This awareness surprised me. I live a life that brings attention to my overall well being, every day, but somehow this deeper need for healing had eluded me, or had it? I landed in this retreat for a reason, but not a reason that I consciously understood going into it. I was drawn to it, though, and acted on it. I carried through with something that called to me, and this what felt so significant in this situation.
So often opportunities appear, and yet, they get lost in the antics of the mind. Rather than listening, we slough off the possibilities and let the critical, negative mind override the inspiration.
This week I have recommitted myself to hearing and feeling with a higher sensitivity in an effort not to get lost in the busy details.
The details that serve my life so much on one level take away precious knowledge from me on an entirely different level. Life becomes this valuable balancing exercise, and when I meet it with awareness and priority, it is less about discipline and becomes more of a dance. This dance has taught me to go inside first, ask the questions of my energy, my happiness and my connection to what matters first before any other decisions are made. This knowledge has become my beacon for living a happy and healthy life.
With these conditions met my life has a fluidity and forgiveness that supports me through whatever shows up. I am reminded of that steady flow of knowledge that is alive with me always and all it takes to access this is the courage and fortitude to go inside first.